the path that i have taken.

the path that i have taken.
(story Of my life)
hate to say this... but im totally lost minded lately.. i dont even know why. (i miss her..? bullshit.....!!) well i just say what i want to say.. i used to be so poor out there, but i still can go on.. still can live peacefully, coz i know, there is always have a friends who willing to save me from a lot of problems....
those all days that we have been thru, yeah. it was great.. we are happy.. we are strong together.. and i almost believe, that nothing can beat us...! we will happy till the end of the world, then our happiness would be continue in heaven after the Final Judgment...! but.. the world... it is just keep on roll.. and roll.. it made us back to the beginning.. from the times that we never know each other.. made us.. erase all of the memories.... our feelings faded away, just becoz of a very single bullshit things. we started to hate each other, we started to feel unhappy when together, we started to feel something is not right out there, but the true is, we are the one who got problems, the problems is not out there.. but deeply on our heart...i dont even noe. which part of us has change, heart..? our mind..? we are the one who can feel those things..

i don't know. my ups n downs keep on telling me that i've done the right things, i've done the best things. but the end is not like what i want. it goes wrong. badly wrong. the results has taken away all of my life, i goes down, deeply down, and for this time, no more hand can catch me, no one can save me, i need to survive, need to save my own self. but, how on earth i can do that...? i used to save a lot of people, but no one can save me from now on..

then i realize, im not the one who should feel guilty, i am an innocent...! if i keep on thinking that way, i should be able to save my self, stand up, and start to hunt down all over the world the person who put my life deeply and totally bullshits. but.. so what then..? if i knew the true, if i catch the person who took away my love, my life, so what then...? kill them..? and try to roll the clock back to the times we used to be happy...? is that so easy...? it might not impossible, i might be able to do it.. you know.. rolling back.. back to the old times.. but... at the very last time, i choose to leave it alone.. i choose.. to forget all about it, and try to rebuilt another happy and peacefully lives. and that is the path that i have taken. even till now, i dont either know what is right or wrong... i choose that way... bcoz i believe.. if i.. and her.. is meant together.. we will... see each other again... and that is the times.. where i need to choose again.. which path should i go, and that would be for the last time, where i need to choose.

what the hell... why should i be this way.. it was a month.. but i still on this fuckin hole.. i never wake up.. when i awake, i was in the dreams again.. again and again..... till when..?

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